To New Beginnings

 

Hey Guys!

Thankyou for clicking onto my FIRST. EVER. BLOG. POST! *excited face*

I am SO new to this, and haven’t written an essay like this since I left school 7 years ago so please forgive me if it’s a bit all over the place!

So as most of you are now aware, just less than 4 months ago I decided to leave my company HOT!MESS after 4 years of building my Instagram born clothing brand. It wasn’t an easy decision to make by any means- but I knew from the moment I made that decision, it was the right one for me.

I was only 19 when I decided to explore Fashion and create my own brand. I had absolutely no idea that HOT!MESS would be as successful as it was… I was a young girl- a bit of a slob actually- (my mum and dad will correct me, a MAJOR SLOB) I had no job, no real qualifications… I quit musical theatre college after less than a year because I was too lazy to travel there 3 times a week and I really didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life! I stayed up every night til 3AM- consumed with social media and listening to music. I then wouldn’t get up til mid afternoon the next day. In fact, looking back now, I was quite depressed actually. I was over 2 stone heavier than I am now- and just Did. Not. Know. What. To. Do. With. My. Life.

I knew that I wanted to be a ‘POPSTAR’. I always have ever since I was a little girl- but I just didn’t know how that would happen? I had no confidence, I was at a very low point in my life with family and relationships and I was deeply ashamed with how I looked.

One particular memory sticks in my head just before HOT!MESS became a reality. I remember one day I was searching through Urban Dictionary (if you have never used this before where have you been hiding?) to find a ‘Brand Name’. I’ve always been a dreamer- mainly because at that time my reality SUCKED. So I decided to think up what my clothing brand would be called when I shot to stardom, LOL!

I eventually came across the word ‘Hot Mess’. I liked the meaning. It meant ‘A person or thing that is spectacularly unsuccessful or disordered, especially one that is a source of peculiar fascination’. I was quite ‘edgy’ at this time in my life- I had blue hair, a black nose ring and a lip piercing. You could say I loved contradiction actually, And so I ran into my parents room and told them that when I became famous my clothing brand would be called Hotmess. My dad loved it- but then he loved all of my ideas. He is a dreamer like me and he loved the meaning too. We then never spoke about it for months after that conversation.

 

 

Many months later, I stumbled upon these amazing clothes in my Nans wardrobe when visiting her one day. She’s a major hoarder, so she had kept clothes from WAY BACK IN THE DAY! I was IN LOVE! The colours, the prints, the patterns- everything just spoke to me! I hadn’t seen any clothes like this anywhere!!!

I knew at that moment I wanted to create something from these vintage finds. I was so inspired, I begged her to part with them so I could take them home and she let me!

I had a friend who I knew these clothes would look amazing on- I had zero confidence at this time- and so I called her and got her to come over and we started taking photos of her in these clothes.

I made my Instagram @hotmessclothing and started uploading the pictures of her wearing them. The Instagram started to gain a lot of attention (no algorithms existed back then and Instagram was just taking off) and within a few days we had over 1000 followers which at the time was amazing! I got so excited. My head was spinning. People all over the world were asking where they could buy these clothes! I said to my dad ‘ I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING WITH THIS, HOW CAN I CREATE A LABEL INSPIRED BY THESE CLOTHES?’

My dad has a background in womens sportswear and so he started circling ideas with me. I started designing on the computer with one of my dads colleagues- not really knowing whether these creations would ever be real. I got addicted to it all! I loved it, and so eventually we got some beanies made with the HOT!MESS logo on… From there we developed T-shirts, leggings, Leotards and Crops- the rest is history. HOT!MESS spiralled really quickly. Cara Delevigne wore our first collection, followed by people like Pixie Lott, Little Mix, Liam Payne & Kylie Jenner. Soon after that we got approached by Selfridges and Topshop and other online retailers… HOT!MESS was taking off- in a really big way. Nobody could believe it. It was a whirlwind. We got some amazing investors on board at the time and we soared.

Fast forward a couple of years- I’ve done above and beyond everything I have ever wanted to do with this little bedroom business idea. I count my lucky stars everyday that not once did I give up, I kept going. It wasn’t all easy- it might sound it- but trust me- blood, sweat and tears went into that business. I also met my boyfriend through HOT!MESS which I will be eternally grateful for.

 

But (and it’s a big but) I realised I now needed change. HOT!MESS, whilst still a roaring success, was heading in a direction that I no longer felt involved with. My entrepreneurial spirit and creativeness had fizzled and whilst other people had new ideas and paths they wanted to lead the business down, it just didn’t agree with me.

I had to be true to myself- I was worth more than just designing clothes which, at this point, is pretty much what I spent my days doing.

I started working on my new business before I made my final decision on whether to leave HOT!MESS for good- I needed to make sure I would have a real purpose if I was to leave. Within a few days of my new venture I knew that I wanted to leave and take this on full time. Within 2 weeks I had made my final decision to leave HOT!MESS.

Tellingly, I didn’t feel sad. I actually felt like a weight had been lifted off my chest and I felt ready to throw myself into the world of being my own boss all over again but in a much different way this time. I am a business builder- I like to see something come of nothing. I like to give something my all and I could no longer do this with the direction HOT!MESS was heading. I will always stand by what I believe in. Only a handful of people ever believed that HOT!MESS would ever get off the ground- but I believed in it and in myself- and it did.

HOT!MESS still stands and is going in a slightly different direction, I will always hold a special place in my heart for what the business was when I was still involved. I would like to personally thank everybody who was ever involved with the business when I was- Especially you Mum & Dad. Also my family, Jaime, everybody at Kamani, my team and my boyfriend Jack for always believing in me even when I lost faith in myself.

This new venture of mine is all I have ever dreamed of and I need to thank myself for again believing in ME and taking that huge leap of faith which has now driven me to my destiny and to the best ‘job’ in the world.

I just want to say a massive thank you to everyone who has taken the time to read this and I am really excited for you guys to get to know me a little better!
Tayla-Blue
xxx

29 Comments

  1. Jade Armstrong
    October 27, 2017 / 9:06 pm

    Ah I love this so much, I feel like you need to write a book, and I bought your first hotmess stuff back in Leicester’s vintage and now I see what you mean with it going to a total different direction it’s such a shame but you’re amazing and your new journey is going to be insane x

  2. Hayley Blackwell
    October 27, 2017 / 9:14 pm

    Love this!! Amazing girl you! 💗

  3. Sab
    October 27, 2017 / 9:36 pm

    Thank you for sharing this Tayla. Your achievements are a huge inspiration to many, especially to all the aspiring girl bosses out there. Reading this, I was able to relate a lot to your earlier feelings (being a slob and all the rest) and at the same age as you now, I’m still figuring it all out- but feel like this was something that I needed to see. I can’t wait to see where your new venture takes you!

  4. Holly
    October 27, 2017 / 9:55 pm

    Amazing Tayla!

    Lovely to learn more about you ❤️

  5. Hayley
    October 27, 2017 / 10:54 pm

    Amazing! I have been folling you for about 3 years now and I love how open and honest you are. So happy for you, you deserved everything and more… can’t wait to read the rest of your posts! xxx

  6. Demi
    October 28, 2017 / 12:04 am

    Fair play – Saw HOT!MESS when it first came about and amazing how well you done. Should be proud of yourself

  7. October 28, 2017 / 1:52 am

    Love this so much Tayla!! I have ordered from HOT!MESS in the past and get asked every. damn. time. I wear my suede t-shirt dresses where I got them from!!! I’m also on Sacha’s team and I love the products and business so much. I’m a fashion buyer in Canada and am looking to pass on some of my responsibilities so I can focus on the business now! SO excited for this next chapter in your life, you’re seriously KILL-ING IT.

  8. October 28, 2017 / 2:06 am

    It’s crazy to see you writing this blog post telling about how you started HotMess from nothing because I remember stumbling across the brand right at the beginning!! I loved your brand from back when you had all the mesh clothing and even wrote about it on my old blog and have watched it grow and grow!! I loved this post, have been following you for a long time now and wish you all the best in the future! 💗

  9. Charlie
    October 28, 2017 / 2:46 am

    Loved this, I’ve been following you from the beginning. Ordering from hot!mess right from the very start. You are a true inspiration and I hope to have a tiny bit of you to throw into my own business. Congratulations on the new blog, I can’t wait to see more xx

  10. October 28, 2017 / 8:22 am

    That was such a pleasure to read! So glad to see you overcome so many obstacles and did what you wanted despite not knowing where it would gob excited for your new venture! X

  11. Rebecca
    October 28, 2017 / 9:59 am

    AmaZing well done Tayla ! I’m so intrigued did you own Hotmess or someone else own it as when you said handing in your resignation confused me lool

    • taylablue
      October 28, 2017 / 11:16 am

      I sold a large share of the business in April this year, Then when the new investors took over- I Sold my shares and handed in my resignation!
      I did own the business til April this year – After that I was a shareholder and employee 🙂 xx

  12. Kirsty
    October 28, 2017 / 2:12 pm

    You are a true inspiration to us all! GET IT GIRL X

    • taylablue
      October 29, 2017 / 2:03 pm

      Thank-you Kirsty! So much love to you xx

  13. Grace
    October 28, 2017 / 3:12 pm

    Love the honesty of this. Slay.

    • taylablue
      October 29, 2017 / 2:01 pm

      Thank- you so much Grace xxx

  14. Sacha
    October 28, 2017 / 3:54 pm

    One proud sister of everything you achieved with Hot!mess and everything you have achieved with your new venture.

    • taylablue
      October 29, 2017 / 2:02 pm

      Thank-you Sacha! xxx

  15. Katje
    October 28, 2017 / 5:42 pm

    Great read!
    What buisness have you moved onto?
    Xxx

    • taylablue
      October 29, 2017 / 2:02 pm

      Hey Katje!
      If you would like more info on the business, You can click on my ‘Business’ Section and write me an email! x

  16. Sydney
    October 28, 2017 / 6:43 pm

    Love this blog best one I have seen!
    I would like to ask for any advice you would give to me as I want to start my own clothing line and where you can find manufacturers?
    Also how much money do you need to start up
    Thank you xx

    • taylablue
      October 29, 2017 / 2:02 pm

      Aww Sydney! What a lovely thing to say, Thank-you!
      xxx

  17. Nicole
    October 28, 2017 / 8:12 pm

    Love your blog already! Amazing first post 😘

    • taylablue
      October 29, 2017 / 2:01 pm

      Thanks Nicole! So kind! xxx

  18. Michelle
    October 29, 2017 / 11:02 pm

    Hello Twyla,
    I just stumbled across your blog.
    What an incredible story of achievement!
    Very inspiring!
    I think you have Everyone curious as to what you are up to next! For sure it will be just as, if not more successful than your first.

    Have a wonderful week ahead!

    • Michelle
      October 29, 2017 / 11:03 pm

      Hi Tayla, (sorry for the miss spell earlier) typo wanted to type Twyla instead. 🙈

  19. Paulina
    October 30, 2017 / 12:05 pm

    I too bought some hotness stuff back in the day and now I’ve moved on with you and I’m all about that chemical peel life (laughing face). Keep doing you girl! You are such an inspiration! I can’t wait for more blog posts <3

  20. Maisie
    October 30, 2017 / 4:57 pm

    Hi tayla, I’m 19 and am trying to find my way just like you was and am really interested in starting my own brand. Is there any chance you could give me some advice or email me? It’s so hard knowing where to start with factories, prototypes etc. Would be really really appreciated!

  21. Mulla
    November 5, 2017 / 9:29 pm

    Well done Tayla! Moving on and doing what you enjoy and have passion for is definitely any advice I would give everyone! Also thank you for the time @ Hot!Mess and allowing me to start my own venture. Peace out and wish you every success in the future

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